Our Last Day Together: Poem to my Precious Children

Forcibly separated from my kids by an unjust family court system.. I wrote this poem to my precious children. I love you xoxo

Our Last Day Together

If I knew today would be last day together…

You wouldn’t have to clean your room,
We’d pretend we were landing on the moon
As we jumped on the bed.

I’d start a “stinky sock” fight
Then fall over gagging when one lands in my face
Later I’d cling to that memory..it’s lingering smell.

I wouldn’t try to convince that broccoli is good for you
We’d make ice-cream sundaes for breakfast,
For lunch, we’d have a food fight
Then leave the kitchen a complete mess.

I would turn the bathtub into a beach….
We’d wear scuba masks and Hawaiian shirts,
and use our feet as paddles, splashing each other.

Bedtime would be more than the ritual
Of getting ready for school in the morning
We’d camp out on the couch watching “Scooby Doo”, 

And scare each other with spooky noises,
Unexpected fingers tickling the back of the neck…
Then fall asleep in a tangle of arms and legs.

I would wake later, to straighten out your covers
So you won’t get cold
And I would have watch you sleep,
Just as I have every night since you were born
With your eyes gently closed, and the breath whispering
 between your lips,
Peace would creep across the world,
Like a mother tucking her child in at night.

If I knew today was our last day together,
I would tell you “I love you” until my voice grew
hoarse, and beg God for the strength to wake up knowing

I would spend the next day
and the countless next…without you.

Emily Court/M21 © 2010

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About Emily Court

Mom & Kids Need "Just Us" To Fight Injustice in Family Court. I blog to raise awareness about problems existing in the family court system, and use my own story as a personal example of how the systemic failures in family court, and the Guardian ad Litem Program, affect families, in an effort to encourage needed reform. "Emily Court" is a survivor of domestic violence and homelessness working to create a better life for her children, in a stable home free of violence. In her efforts to rebuild her life, she has not only encountered harassment and intimidation from her alleged abuser but faced systematic failures in family court that have empowered her alleged abuser and put her children at risk. Emily is fighting to keep her kids safe, and bring them home. Through writing and blogging, Emily is working to raise awareness about domestic violence, and the urgent need for family court reform. She is currently working on a memoir titled "'Til Prayers Are Answered".
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3 Responses to Our Last Day Together: Poem to my Precious Children

  1. Ray says:

    Today is my last day with my family. Wife wants a divorce to be with her affair partner. I’m sure in time shell regret it.

    Tomorrow she moves out and I’ll have the kids for the full day. After that I’m stuck being a weekend parent due to my schedule.

    I’m sure going to miss kissing them good night when I got home from work. I’ll sure miss out even more on their lives. I’ll miss loving in them with hugs and kisses everyday.

    • M21 says:

      Ray-

      Sounds like you are going through a hard time, I hope things do improve for you & your children.

      It’s different being an abusive victim whose ex is actively working to sabotage your relationship with your children…and keep you apart… BUT I can honestly say the little things you do to stay in your childrens’ lives DO mean alot, and DO go a long way!

      You won’t have the family you used to have and things won’t be the same..that involves some grieving and healing. But you can work on rebuilding, and can work to remain close to your children.

      Some ideas that may help:
      -Give the kids a calendar to mark when visits occur, when they will get phone calls etc
      -Weekly phone calls, at a scheduled time
      -Writing e-mail or snail mail letters (keep them child friendly, do not talk about the x or the divorce etc. Maybe send cartoons or clippings about favorite movies, family pictures, holiday cards etc)
      -Try to visit on holidays or school days off??
      -The law says that your employer is supposed to accomodate you for school breaks, child sick days and doctor appts, that may be something to consider as well
      -Be fkexible and creative!

      Blessings, M21

  2. Trudy says:

    I just lost custody of my 2 girls by my x and his wife. and it has been the hardest thing I’ve ever had to deal with. But I know God has a plan for all this. Thank you for sharing this poem. It helps me to understand some of this. U will be in my prayers

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